Fading Away...

Just now I had a good cry. Have figured out why I have a thing for "fading men" types. It is because I think that maybe this time I will finally catch my father before he permanently fades away from my field of view...the tears showed me that. As painful as it is; it is good to know this. Bring on the tears...bring on the further self awareness...bring on the letting go of accumulated pain...bring on the recovery...